Please don't stop the music...

It is actually quite an embarrassment.

I really really really miss singing.

But that's not the embarrassment.

What's embarrassing is the fact that I joined choir for almost four years, and after a year, I can no longer reach the usual soprano pitch that I was once comfortable with.
THAT is what is embarrassing.

I want to join choir again!

I want to perform with a group of people. I want to dance the night away. I want to sing to the timing of an african jembe. I want to beat a tune with my hands. I want to listen to the voices of a dozen, maybe more people singing in harmony.

I want, I want, I want...

It sucks that I can't sing the same way I used to. I usually sing along with the radio, but when I listened to myself recently, and I mean actually listened to myself, I didn't sound the same way I used to sound. Certainly not better. And when I tried to sing some of my old choir songs, it didn't sound right. I was missing the 'key note', as Chris my old choir conductor would say. And I couldn't read music the way I used to either. I mean, I didn't expect myself to retain that skill during the TEEs, but I didn't think it would be that hard to get back on track again.

Bonk'aba'phandle. Zum Gali Gali. The Merry Widow. Tonight.
So many songs. So many good times.

I'm on the look out for a choir right now. And I'm hoping that to make things easier, the university I get into will have a competent choir. I really need to get back into this vibe again. The type I can only get before, during and after a performance. I guess you could call it a kind of high.
It would definitely explain why I was never interested in drinking or doing drugs.

You know, it's odd that considering how shy I used to be, I'm going crazy that I'm not able to perform in a choir.

Choir gave me some of the best moments of my life...
I just hope that my music doesn't go away.

Mishy <3

PS. Five more days.