NERVOUS!
What was pure excitement during Orientation Week has slowly dribbled away into pure nervousness.
I have a good timetable. Or as good as one can get it to be in any case. Classes on Monday, Tuesday and Friday, but I have Wednesday and Thursday off for me to relax, finish assignments, go to work, etc.
I'm crazily nervous for tomorrow. Because I don't know anyone who's doing the Arts or more specifically the Communications degree with me.
I envy people who've got the most amazing verbal communication skills because they can get places.
Sure, I'm doing the Communications degree. But my skill lies in my writing. Not necessarily in my speech. Certainly not in my social skills.
It feels as though I've been getting through by relying on one friend. Who has the most amazing verbal communication skills. And he's not even doing communications!
I'm rambling on. But it made me have a think through today. It made me wonder if I knew what I was doing, and whether it was the right thing.
University is a new beginning. For me. For a lot of people. The gateway to a life you never knew existed or could exist.
The future depends on it.
Most of it would be my own fault. I don't know how to relate to people. Small talk is a mission for me. I read a health article where the writer advises you to look out for symptoms of Aspergers in yourself or in your child.
I've decided that I'm slightly 'Aspergic'.
But whatever. New beginning.
I just hope I make the most of it.
Mishy <3
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