Worth It?

Okay, so it's been a long time since I've been busy with anything full stop. I wish I could take up dancing or choir again, but I guess I'm going to have to wait for uni to start before I even think of taking up anything that may tie me down! [Oh gosh, please anythng that will take me away from here- MELBOURNE!!]

But okay, so the slightly extra time does mean I have more time for reflection.

Yes. Reflection.

It is quite a scary topic to think about, I know.

I decided to make up for all my non-existant-ness during exams by talking to the people I'd really missed out on and everything. And, who'm I kidding, there's a lot of people I haven't talked to in ages! I could actually make a career out of it, completely. And it's not like I meet new people every other week. More like every other year. Facebook is just that convenient for things like these, really.

But, as it turns out...some people don't really seem to be worth keeping in touch with. =/
It's odd. The people I talked to everyday and whom I couldn't live without back when we saw each other everyday...don't reply back as much as I'd like.
It's odd, that the people I barely ever talked to before have suddenly become more important to me in so many ways I could never have imagined.
Plus, it's hard. When I talk, others don't. At such a great distance, I agree it's not easy, but at least I do try. I wonder, really, if it's worth all the trouble I put into keeping in touch with people, when these other people don't put in the same effort that I do.

Don't get me wrong. They have their lives to lead...and I have mine. But people seem to be so absorbed in the lives that they lead. And people have some strange misconceptions about what I do. When I first started working, most of my international school friends thought I was working to feed my family. -_-" NO, I am working to finance myself, not my family. Just because I've started work does not mean that I have suddenly stooped so low that I partake in child labour. It just means that I'm preparing myself.

But some people have been great. Been there for me almost every step of the way, and just encouraging me to get there, slowly, but surely. Put up with my fights, my strange ideas of the world [yes, it's strange - to you.] and my wild imagination. Stuck by me through my presence, and my absence. Given me as much news as they can of the world that I left. Allowed me to travel, at least in spirit, through the journey that I would have gone on with them. That's the effort I can appreciate. That's the effort I put in for everyone who's ever had an impact on my life, and sometimes others as well.
It would be nice if people could return the favour. I don't ask people to act as though I am still around. I don't expect people to give me the same attention that I once had when I was present all the time. But it would be nice if, just a few times a month or even a year...I got some news that they were still alive, and that I have not been forgotten. That the friendship we once had did not fade completely, and that I actually once lived in the same culture and time as my friend did.

I'm not specifically pointing anyone out, nor do I actually have a particular person in mind. But it might give an idea of how many people it is that just seem to gradually fade away.

So really...is it worth me putting in so much effort for the people who don't even try?
I'll keep trying...but only to find the people who will put in the same effort as I do.

Mishy <3

In another note: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX!!! Hope the 18th year turns out to be spectacular for you bro. And may whatever you set out to achieve, hopefully come true. And yes, we will go to Starbucks lah. Because Coffee Bean is gay. :P

Facebook- Do I Spend My Life On It?

And yes, I know I use it way too much.

I just thought about the amount of time I actually spend on Facebook. I spent a good 8.5 hours at work yesterday [how horrendous] and when I got back, I did nothing EXCEPT go onto Facebook. And well check my email, and my blog [hallur!] and about a gazillion other things that I normally check. Go the internet. :P

And truthfully, I did actually ask myself: What is this for?

Initially, I joined Facebook because most of my friends were joining Facebook. Facebook, the 'old people Myspace'. Admittedly, I joined Myspace too. But I couldn't take it, so I left. Facebook is much better. Call me a geriatric if you must, but I am a firm believer in and disciple of Facebook. :D My mates in Malaysia, South Africa and the Philippines all use Facebook, with a few owning both accounts as many of us believe that Myspace is old and useless and not as much fun as Facebook. In Australia, only a handful own Facebook, and are the ones who've coined the term 'old people Myspace'. So if the rest of the world have decided that Facebook is ultimately the best, who're the old people now?? XD [and let's just forget about the USA, cuz the battle between Facebook and Myspace is pretty even there]

But really, why do I spend so much time on Facebook? I have a friend, *Thingus, who refuses to get Facebook. In one of the rare chat sessions I had with him, when I asked him why he wasn't getting Facebook, he replied that it was futile, and a waste of time because he didn't want to 'follow the trend'. When I pointed out that he wasn't actually able to keep in touch with the rest of us due to annoying time zones and his apparent laziness in replying emails [especially the extra long ones I sent to him] he merely seemed to shrug it off.

Facebook to me...is a way of keeping in touch with friends. I know the world calls it 'Facebook stalking' but in my little universe, this isn't quite 'stalking', but a way of finding out where everyone is and how everyone is doing.
I agree that it becomes stalking when you spend every waking moment with the person, call them every afternoon, meet them every weekend for parties, and then on top of that STILL stalk them online every weekday night. I mean honestly, there's only so much a person can take of you, lol.
It's the only way for me to keep in touch and find out if anybody is moving anywhere. [in my case, at least a tenth of my Facebook contacts encounter a move on an avergae of every five years] It's a way of finding out how everybody is due to the ass that is time difference. It's the only way for me to actually believe that I am still a part of a person's life when they include me in their little Facebook lives.

Desperate as it sounds, this really is the way to go.

Still, I don't exactly condone life dependence on Facebook. There's so much more to life than Facebook really, and I'm sure most of us do know this. It's just like watching something on TV, or reading something in a magazine and thinking 'wow, that's nice'. But it's not exactly the same thing is it? The difference between reading about it and actually experiencing it is just that great.
Imagine you, on your deathbed [oh, how morbid]. What will you look back on and say? If you've spent your whole life in Facebook...there's nothing is there?

'Rats, I wish I'd added that Hatching Eggs app'...
'Rats, I should've gone sky diving, not bungee jumping...'

Note the difference?

So yes, I reckon I do spend quite a bit of time on it...but hopefully it will never increase to take over my entire life... =)

^.^" No, I will not be like this either. Hopefully.

Mishy <3